Takdir

kadang-kadang tengah kita gembira..
tibe-tiba masalah datang melanda..
tengah kita bahagia tiba-tiba kita terluka..
saat kita terlalu percaya pada seseorang
 tiba-tiba seseorang itu melukakan kita..
kita terasa diri ini dihargai tiba-tiba dia menghina..
bila semua itu terjadi kita rasa hampa..
kita rasa kecewa , kita menyoalkannya..
kita menyalahkan hidup..
tetapi pernah tak kita terfikir semuanya berlaku untuk kebaikan..
ada orang kata pengalaman mengajar kita menjadi lebih dewasa..
sedang asyik kita bahagia gembira sampai kita lupa untuk bersyukur..
bila masalah menimpa baru kita sedar semuanya sementara...
tetapi percayalah bahawa semuanya yang berlaku adalah takdir..
belajar bersyukur dan belajar bersedia untuk segala kemungkinan....

2015

dalam sedar tak sedar berakhirnya 2014 yang banyak memberi aku pengalaman yang bermakna..
2014 yang menyakitkan dan mengembirakan.. 2014 aku kehilangan seorang yang amat bermakna pada aku, dan 2014 juga mengajar aku erti cinta dan pergorbanan yang sebenarnya.. pada mula aku memikirkan lelaki tidak penting bagi aku. kerana aku ada abah.. itu sudah cukup bagi aku he is my hero.. tapi setelah abah pergi selama-lamanya baru aku sedar yang orang yang kita sayang takkan selamanya ada dengan kita. sampai aku mengenal seseorang yang amat bermakna bagi aku.. mengenali dia membuat diri aku kembali bangkit. membuat aku percaya pada cinta.. dan aku tidak pernah mencintai seseorng sebegitu.. tetapi sekali lagi aku sedar yang dia bukan tercipta untuk ku... cintanya hanya untuk dia.. dan aku tidak berharap kasih sayang darinya. aku tidak akan meminta darinya.. biar cinta ini aku tanam dalam2...

special for you

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped you off at the train station
Put a kiss on top of your head
Watched you wave
And watched you wave
Then I went on home to my skyscrapers
And neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
Away, yeah

Woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain
The morning rain
And though I wish that you were here
On that same old road that brought me here
It's calling me home
It's calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I can spend my whole life hiding my heart away

best friend

Do you remember when I said I'd always be there.
Ever since we were ten, baby.
When we were out on the playground playing pretend.
Didn't know it back then.

Now I realize you were the only one
It's never too late to show it.
Grow old together,
Have feelings we had before
Back when we were so innocent

[Chorus:]
I pray for all your love
Girl our love is so unreal
I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me
This is something like a movie
And I dont know how it ends girl
But I fell in love with my Best Friend

Through all the dudes that came by
And all the nights that you'd cry.
Girl I was there right by your side.
How could I tell you I loved you
When you were so happy
With some other guy?

Now I realize you were the only one
It's never too late to show it.
Grow old together,
Have feelings we had before
When we were so innocent.

[Chorus]

I know it sounds crazy
That you'd be my baby.
Girl you mean that much to me.

And nothing compares when
We're lighter than air and
We don't wanna come back down.

And I don't wanna ruin what we have
Love is so unpredictable.

But it's the risk that I'm taking, hoping, praying
You'd fall in love with your best friend

[Chorus x2]

I remember when I said I'd always be there
Ever since we were ten baby.

karma..

everything make sense now...
whatever happend is because of me..
semuanya karma untuk aku..
kerana menyakitkan hati orang yang menyayangi aku
setulus hati dia..
dan sekarang aku menjadi seperti mereka..
i deserve it everything was happend now..
i wish i could run..
but is to late now..
i just have to wait what happend next...
karma was hit me i just hope..
you dont get karma like i get..

Topeng

aku seperti memakai topeng..
untuk menutup segala kesedihan dihati tapi aku menangis didalam..
kenapa ini terjadi aku masih tidak mendapat jawapannya..
andai aku dapat memakai topeng ...
akan aku pakai untuk aku menangis sepuasnya melihat dia gembira bersama yg tersayang..

kenapa

kenapa sering kali aku disakiti...
kenapa harus aku menjumpai diayang sememangnya mempunyai kekasih..
kali ini lebih dalam lagi..
aku mencintai dia lebih dari diri sendiri..
aku menangis kerana dia..
sedangkan sebelum ini aku xpernah menagis kerana lelaki..
adakah ini takdir aku..
apa yang akan berlaku..
aku terpaksa pendam...